It is not easy to stay out of the trouble. Life is full of pressure, nightmares, and disorientation. It could be a bless with blooming flowers, or a curse with thorns and prickles. One night, laughs are blasting with a glass of wine in hand; the next day, desperation puts blade on the neck.

"Who is there?" Ann's mother answered the door.

"I guess I drunk too much last night that I forgot to drop the pain killers to Langdon." I saw smile on her face.

"Thank you. That is so nice of you." She took the pain killers in her hands and was about to close the door. "He is not in the house now. I will give it to him."

"Thank you. Remind him to eat after meal, otherwise it is not good for the stomach." I remembered my terrible experience with taking painkillers before meal.

She hesitated a little bit and stepped out. "Langdon is in hospital now." She said, with no expression on the face.

"Really? For the wisdom tooth? He does not look like someone go to the hospital for a wisdom tooth." I am pretty surprised.

"No. He tried to kill himself." she lowered her voice.

"What? How? ...He seems happy last night." I do not know when to began my questions.

"He cut his neck with a shaving blade this afternoon. He is in the hospital right now. You know he has a lot of pressure." she looked at me, "He had a terrible childhood and that all added up to the pressure."

"Yeah. I have heard a little bit about that. But, how come...? I mean what triggers his suicide?" I did not anticipate much information for her answers since she was about to take the pills and shut the doors.

"You know he lost his job and he was arguing with Ann....." I could not follow what she said. Maybe the reason is not important. "So he is OK right now. I mean, he is out of danger. What did the doctor say?"

" I do not know what did the doctor say. He is in the emergence room now." Ann's mother always has this calm smile on her face, nothing would change it, like she already saw everything in her life.

" Ok. Tell Ann I will go with her when she is going to the hospital." Langdon is not a very close friend of mine. However, when I am struggling for my life and so- believed career, I feel people who are struggling for a better life, is close to me.

" That would be six thirty."

I drove back home, cooked a mixture of eggplant, broccoli and squash for my dinner and watched "Friends". The street is quite. No kids are playing football outside. I really enjoy dinner in the kitchen with the sunset view from the window. "Science is good. It helps people." that is Henry's simple words after he knew my career plan. "Supposably." I could not say much about that because I choose science first because of my personal interest. They all say science and technology are moving the society ahead. I believe that, not less even after I struggled three years at connecticut. To me, science is a career, which you choose to explore the world for the truth. After that, you tell others the truth and that is how science helps people. So the truth I want to tell Henry is life is not a curse for him and he should not give up.